MAMAMIA!*

I don’t know what to say. I only feel sad when I hear someone talks loudly to someone else. Do you know why? Because of talking loudly, people think that one is impolite and never acts well. Though one is an educated, why don’t they humble them selves?
I have a short story between a man and a mirror. They have a conversation every night. I don’t know, exactly, what they are talking about. I listened once to their conversation.
When they were setting off the conversation, I chased a mouse taking away my cheese on a table in dinning room. The mouse surprised me. Suddenly, I heard someone was talking to in a room beside Utah’s room. “Listen to me”, one shouted, “I dunno what I did to you. I only remember that I was drunk at the night when we had a dinner. If I did it, please give me a chance to take care of you”, one got out of the room. I just realized the man who spoke in that room was my friend living together in an apartment.
Next day, before going school I heard again two persons were talking together in a same room. “I wanna go work. Don’t follow me any more. Let me myself do it. I will prove that I am able and suitable being your man”. Than he left that room quickly carrying a black suitcase on his left hand and a news paper on his right hand. He stopped a taxi, which passed in front of the apartment, while looked at his opened window.
Though we live together, we often talk to each other. He is very busy on his job at a famous company. And I am very busy to my study. We don’t solve our different yet. But I am sure, someday, we will find out how to act.
Oh, I remember, he ever said that he had spent much money. But I don’t know what the money was for? It seems I love listening to her conversation. I don’t mean to do that. He always speaks loudly. And I never come in his room, because I just came here five days ago from Indonesia.
He said, “Why do you study here? Isn’t the education in Indonesia quite good, is it?” when I came for the first time. “I never plan to study here. And why do you study here too?” He stepped near me and looked at my eyes, suddenly, “You are so nerve”, he went out, “Be patient staying here!”
Four days. I never imagined that I stayed with a strange man. He told to someone I didn’t know he was there. I really didn’t care to what he did. I never involved in his problems and wanted to know about him any longer. I have known it from his actions.
Now, the fifth day of my coming, I am still doubt to live together, although I am very close with Utah who likes swimming and talking much. I hope I will meet him again. And I decided to move out from the apartment. I have told to Utah before.
And now Utah comes to my room, “Can you stay any longer here Nuno?” giving a letter I don’t know what it is from.
“I’m so sorry Utah. I can’t hold it again. I hope you’ll understand”, while hugging him.
“You mean what? George?” he asks.
“Exactly”.
“You misunderstand to him. I know that he always talks to himself in his room. But you don’t find out whom he talks to?” he tries to ensure me.
“I don’t care”, while sitting down on a chair.
“You have to care”, he is angry, “He always talks to a mirror. He joins in a drama competition which will be held next week”.
“What! Drama? I never imagine that he …, ah, forget it. Now, what should I do?”
Suddenly, George comes, “Why do you package your goods? Wanna go some where, don’t you?”
“No”, I answer. Than he walks to his room and begins the conversation again. But he speaks weakly.
Utah and I only laugh.

*(was published in VJ (Voice of JS - EC) )

“PROSTITUTION” What Do You Think About It?

There are so many reasons why women prostitute them selves. What they do is not completely wrong. But, economic problem is an actual reason they regarded. Poverty becomes a shield to protect them that will people boo (as prostitute). And actually, I agree if they argue, “Feed the baby”, beside poverty. We don’t have to blame them. How can a baby makes money or must it work while it is still child, or will you murder it. No another choice they have. Save your baby or be safe in hell. And the question is why do they have a baby before getting married? And how long have they been becoming a prostitute?
I am sure what they do actually is right for its reason. But the way to resolve their problem must be wrong. Unless they made a mistake, that would not happen. I only think we must give them an achievement for their efforts to survive. Can we say what they did is not an effort? So we claim they must be punished. And how is about philanderers? I only think if I were her child, I would never become angry. I do realize that I feed upon her efforts. How can I blame her if she is my mother? Should I say, “Fuck you mama, why I were born from your womb? My friends boo me that I have no father and my mama is prostitute. Sham on me. I ever no ask to be born”?
And government plans to combat them in order to clean our beloved country from prostitution. I don’t think so. They should combat my mind first. Prostitution will never end. I believe in that statement and you do. There is a woman, there is prostitution, and there is a man, there is prostitution. The government must destroy both of them to make their plan comes true. No people no prostitution. The more people are, the bigger prostitution is. Nothing is impossible in the lovely world by human hands and God power.
I watched in television a woman was getting away while police tried to capture her. She suggested as prostitute. And police chased not only her but also her friends. And finally, they were captured by police and interviewed. Then police released them to go home and ask not to do that or captured twice. That was so fool. It showed that police had no job to do except bothered prostitutes were working. I imagined, at the time, that after capturing some prostitutes what would they do? Oh, they released them. I thought those prostitutes would be in jail for a long time. They did not, in the fact. And now, I am sure those prostitute still do. Unless police had released them but gave money long life, they would not have done it forever. But that is impossible to do.
Working is not easy to do. It needs requirements, which we must broaden. Implementation is the key to reach it. But it is difficult to do if we don’t have eager. School is a mean where we increase our abilities and skills in order to find out what we don’t find it out before. It doesn’t mean those who never step on school have no abilities or skills? That is not true. For example, your father is a farmer and never studies in school. The crops are always good, because of your father hands. Does he know how to plan? What are kinds of earth good for planting? Naturally, your father knows it. Ask him where he studied planting.
Making money. Every one wants have work to do. They want to earn their own money. An officer works to earn money. A driver works to earn money. A farmer works to earn money and so a prostitute does. They have their own way to earn money. What’s the money for? Of course to fulfill their need while they live in the world. Every one has own need.
So, don’t always think in negative side of prostitution. Ask them why they do it. Some factors influence them to become prostitute. The environment where they live in. Don’t think they are not educated. Capturing and then releasing them is not the solution to solve the problem. They need money. Give them field works. There is a measurement to know that our country is left behind. Poverty, prostitution, and jobless are not a measurement. You see that our country is the most motorcycle user in the world ‘till our fuel material collapsed. How many taxes did we receive from them?
Prostitution, basically, cannot be destroyed. It can be decreased step by step and I am not really sure it can.

ABBRACADABRA

“I am coming.” while kissing my cheek. She puts an old book on a table. It is dusty and broken. There are some words on the cover, which is written with an old font. ‘Magical Words to Spell’. In addition, a symbol is under the words.
“Where do you get this book”, I ask to her.
“Hem, are you interested?” she seems to kid. “I believe that you will love this book”.
I take the book and open first page. There is a picture. In the picture, an old man is wearing a cone hat and a long white dress. He has a long white beard and is sitting on a chair reading a book, which is on the table in front of him.
“Ok. I must leave now. My boy friend is waiting for me”, walks a while, turns her face back, and says, “Don’t tell any one about this book”.
She spoke murmur so that I could not listen to what she said. However, this is an attractive book I ever got in my life. It is such imaginations that were poured on every page of this amazing book. I don’t want to miss it. However, it is not a certain condition to read it here. I have to bring it at home and try how amazing it is.


“Abracadabra”
“Abracadabra. What the hell word is. Is this magical or bullshit word? I almost spell it more then a hundred times, but nothing happened. I must spell it again”, while looking at the word to ensure that he did not miss any alphabet.
“Abracadabra”
“Abracadabra”
“Abra - cadabraaa”, threw the book to the corner of the room, “Bullshit! I spelled it a hundred and three but still did not occur anything here.”
Wind blows hard, suddenly, from the opened window making curtains in that room sway back and forth. She stands up and tries to reach the window to close it, but the wind blows harder. The book opened. Light rises from the middle of the book and lightens the room. She, now, looks at the light and walks slowly to that light.
“It is amazing”. As fast as the light disappears, the wind stops blowing hard. The room is scattered. She takes the book and focuses her eyes on the opened page, which the light appeared from, and tries to read the ancient words she never finds out before.
“God, I miss this page.” She read the sentences and tries memorizing it. Her mouth seems to move but not speak aloud. Some fingers stay close to the dirty pages.
“Thanks god! Eventually, I understand this confusing book” while opening next page.
“The formula” shouting. “This magic formula needs ingredient. Two bear nails, a cat hair, and four bird eyes.” She stops a while. Her brow is furrowed. She closes the page and puts it behind a colorful pillow, than lays her slimming body on the mattress. She takes a long breath and releases it slowly. Her two-eyes are gazing at twinkling lamp hanging on ceiling.
“Where can I get those ingredients? At the market where every body goes shopping. Does the market sell any bear nail and cat hair? How silly I am”. She tries to close the eyes, but a shinning white circle door appears, suddenly, from the corner of that room. She is surprised. She doesn’t realize that her body moves to that door itself. The shinning door blinds her eyes.


Wide grassland without any tree. Long grasses cover the brown earth and a body lay stretched out under a big tree. A beast-man is coming near to that body. He bends his back and look at every inch of the lying body. “Human”, then he turns back keeping away from and walks. He stops.
“Human and human again” he speaks loudly. “Why humans must be here. They must stain this pure world” while turning back again and walking to that body.
The girl’s eyes opened slowly. She tries to sit under the big tree. She is surprised by a strange creature whose head is buffalo, body is human and feet are cow. She screams loudly and the creature is only in silent. “Who are you? Where am I?” While standing from her sit.
That creature come near to the girl and says, “You are not the only human who ever come to this place. Follow me! I will accompany you to your community”.
“Hey, who are you?” ask that girl while following the creature. The creature doesn’t respond. He just keeps walking.
“Hello! Do you hear me?” Before the creature answer, suddenly, a very big spider stands in front of them. Its eyes like some glasses stick on its face. The spider sends out web to catch them, but the creature’s axe bladed it. The spider sends out web continuously. “Hide behind that tree” he commands to that girl while pointing at a big tree near river. The girl quickly hides behind the tree and the creature still fights against spider.
The spider shoots web to the creature, but only his axe thrown. Now, the creature heads the spider without any weapon. Shooting web caught his body. He cannot move. That spider is running fast to him. The girl just hides behind the tree although she knows that his friend caught.
“I must help him. I must help him” she says to herself. She goes out from that hidden place and takes a branch of a tree. She shouts to the spider, “Hey, crazy spider! Isn’t it bored eating a kind of those creatures, is it? Eat me! Eat me now” while rising the branch up to the spider.
The spider seems to be angry. It walks far from the creature to the girl. Web is flying from the spider to her. She can avoid it, luckily. However, she doesn’t realize that another web is coming fast to catch her. They, both, cannot move now because of spider’s web.
That big spider, now, is walking to eat the girl. Its mouth opens and drops of saliva are falling on the earth. The creature tries to release the web. The web is so hard. The spider’s mouth becomes closer to the girl. The girl screams and suddenly a shinning light appears from around her body. The branch becomes a magic stick. “Fire bolt!” the girl shouts and a fire bolt-ball burns the spider. Webs which tied them disappear as the spider disappeared.
“You are an ordinary people. You are magician. Let’s leave this place soon!” then they continue the journey to the human community. Their adventure in the magic world just was begun.


M SAYID WIJAYA