MAMAMIA!*

I don’t know what to say. I only feel sad when I hear someone talks loudly to someone else. Do you know why? Because of talking loudly, people think that one is impolite and never acts well. Though one is an educated, why don’t they humble them selves?
I have a short story between a man and a mirror. They have a conversation every night. I don’t know, exactly, what they are talking about. I listened once to their conversation.
When they were setting off the conversation, I chased a mouse taking away my cheese on a table in dinning room. The mouse surprised me. Suddenly, I heard someone was talking to in a room beside Utah’s room. “Listen to me”, one shouted, “I dunno what I did to you. I only remember that I was drunk at the night when we had a dinner. If I did it, please give me a chance to take care of you”, one got out of the room. I just realized the man who spoke in that room was my friend living together in an apartment.
Next day, before going school I heard again two persons were talking together in a same room. “I wanna go work. Don’t follow me any more. Let me myself do it. I will prove that I am able and suitable being your man”. Than he left that room quickly carrying a black suitcase on his left hand and a news paper on his right hand. He stopped a taxi, which passed in front of the apartment, while looked at his opened window.
Though we live together, we often talk to each other. He is very busy on his job at a famous company. And I am very busy to my study. We don’t solve our different yet. But I am sure, someday, we will find out how to act.
Oh, I remember, he ever said that he had spent much money. But I don’t know what the money was for? It seems I love listening to her conversation. I don’t mean to do that. He always speaks loudly. And I never come in his room, because I just came here five days ago from Indonesia.
He said, “Why do you study here? Isn’t the education in Indonesia quite good, is it?” when I came for the first time. “I never plan to study here. And why do you study here too?” He stepped near me and looked at my eyes, suddenly, “You are so nerve”, he went out, “Be patient staying here!”
Four days. I never imagined that I stayed with a strange man. He told to someone I didn’t know he was there. I really didn’t care to what he did. I never involved in his problems and wanted to know about him any longer. I have known it from his actions.
Now, the fifth day of my coming, I am still doubt to live together, although I am very close with Utah who likes swimming and talking much. I hope I will meet him again. And I decided to move out from the apartment. I have told to Utah before.
And now Utah comes to my room, “Can you stay any longer here Nuno?” giving a letter I don’t know what it is from.
“I’m so sorry Utah. I can’t hold it again. I hope you’ll understand”, while hugging him.
“You mean what? George?” he asks.
“Exactly”.
“You misunderstand to him. I know that he always talks to himself in his room. But you don’t find out whom he talks to?” he tries to ensure me.
“I don’t care”, while sitting down on a chair.
“You have to care”, he is angry, “He always talks to a mirror. He joins in a drama competition which will be held next week”.
“What! Drama? I never imagine that he …, ah, forget it. Now, what should I do?”
Suddenly, George comes, “Why do you package your goods? Wanna go some where, don’t you?”
“No”, I answer. Than he walks to his room and begins the conversation again. But he speaks weakly.
Utah and I only laugh.

*(was published in VJ (Voice of JS - EC) )

“PROSTITUTION” What Do You Think About It?

There are so many reasons why women prostitute them selves. What they do is not completely wrong. But, economic problem is an actual reason they regarded. Poverty becomes a shield to protect them that will people boo (as prostitute). And actually, I agree if they argue, “Feed the baby”, beside poverty. We don’t have to blame them. How can a baby makes money or must it work while it is still child, or will you murder it. No another choice they have. Save your baby or be safe in hell. And the question is why do they have a baby before getting married? And how long have they been becoming a prostitute?
I am sure what they do actually is right for its reason. But the way to resolve their problem must be wrong. Unless they made a mistake, that would not happen. I only think we must give them an achievement for their efforts to survive. Can we say what they did is not an effort? So we claim they must be punished. And how is about philanderers? I only think if I were her child, I would never become angry. I do realize that I feed upon her efforts. How can I blame her if she is my mother? Should I say, “Fuck you mama, why I were born from your womb? My friends boo me that I have no father and my mama is prostitute. Sham on me. I ever no ask to be born”?
And government plans to combat them in order to clean our beloved country from prostitution. I don’t think so. They should combat my mind first. Prostitution will never end. I believe in that statement and you do. There is a woman, there is prostitution, and there is a man, there is prostitution. The government must destroy both of them to make their plan comes true. No people no prostitution. The more people are, the bigger prostitution is. Nothing is impossible in the lovely world by human hands and God power.
I watched in television a woman was getting away while police tried to capture her. She suggested as prostitute. And police chased not only her but also her friends. And finally, they were captured by police and interviewed. Then police released them to go home and ask not to do that or captured twice. That was so fool. It showed that police had no job to do except bothered prostitutes were working. I imagined, at the time, that after capturing some prostitutes what would they do? Oh, they released them. I thought those prostitutes would be in jail for a long time. They did not, in the fact. And now, I am sure those prostitute still do. Unless police had released them but gave money long life, they would not have done it forever. But that is impossible to do.
Working is not easy to do. It needs requirements, which we must broaden. Implementation is the key to reach it. But it is difficult to do if we don’t have eager. School is a mean where we increase our abilities and skills in order to find out what we don’t find it out before. It doesn’t mean those who never step on school have no abilities or skills? That is not true. For example, your father is a farmer and never studies in school. The crops are always good, because of your father hands. Does he know how to plan? What are kinds of earth good for planting? Naturally, your father knows it. Ask him where he studied planting.
Making money. Every one wants have work to do. They want to earn their own money. An officer works to earn money. A driver works to earn money. A farmer works to earn money and so a prostitute does. They have their own way to earn money. What’s the money for? Of course to fulfill their need while they live in the world. Every one has own need.
So, don’t always think in negative side of prostitution. Ask them why they do it. Some factors influence them to become prostitute. The environment where they live in. Don’t think they are not educated. Capturing and then releasing them is not the solution to solve the problem. They need money. Give them field works. There is a measurement to know that our country is left behind. Poverty, prostitution, and jobless are not a measurement. You see that our country is the most motorcycle user in the world ‘till our fuel material collapsed. How many taxes did we receive from them?
Prostitution, basically, cannot be destroyed. It can be decreased step by step and I am not really sure it can.